Saturday, April 15, 2023

Competition (a short story by Tan Hao Jin)

 

           We imagined cheers, thunderous applause. Nobody had been a match for our crushing strengths in our earlier matches. We were the cream of the elite, the best of all. I particularly enjoyed looking at my opponent’s faces, knowing that their hearts had been crushed into a sodden mash of beetroot. Our parents have instilled in us this quote: Second was the first to lose. We were desperate for excellence, not perfection. You see, Ariel ,Rachel and I were trumpet players, exceeding our teachers expectations.

 But alas, as we are humans, we experience defeat. The three of us were knocked down our thrones and hit the ground with a sickening thud that fateful day. We were twisted with grief and sorrow.


The Ictus International Music Competition was approaching, symbolizing the best of all. Only the worthy were allowed to compete. Without batting an eyelid, my teacher registered us for the competition. Hah! This will be a piece of cake. I thought, puffing up my chest with pride. I was very wrong.


 The fateful day finally arrived. Buses came and went. An important driver pulled up at 8 o’ clock to fetch us from our class.  Before long, we stepped in the hall, so silent that you could have heard a pin drop. Competitors piled in, all looking experienced and up for a match. “ Let the matches begin!” A booming voice filled the hall. It was as cold as an iceberg floating in the frozen sea on a wintery night. “First off will be the team from Rulang, Ariel, Xinran and Rachel versus the team from Nanhua, Hua Ming, Ming Zhe, and Fiona! Our team was encouraged by thunderous applause rivaled only by the stamping of feet from the other. Our team started playing our instruments and got cheering from the crowd.


 But as the others started playing, the audience quieted. A strange, sad wailing came from the violin that the trio were playing. A strange and unearthly sound rose up from the instrument. It rose up high and full of beauty and then fell again to a mournful note.  It ended with a bow. The entire hall was deathly silent. Wave after wave, the audience stood up and the sound they made made my clapping earlier sound like a baby talking. I could have sworn that even the gods were clapping. Of course, there is no doubt about the winning team. They crushed us and even claimed the trophy as 1st. 


All the hard work that we put in the competition, all flushed down the drain. We were sitting in the girls bathroom crying. Tears flowed through my eyes. How could we lose? Our melody was unbeatable, but theirs, like a river flowing along a creek……flowing endlessly, like a river that was calm. Sorrow filled me, worse than what I felt when our opponents played.But of what price? They had put sweat, blood and tears in that melody. But what have we done? Nothing but to boast, claim and bask in glory. Even we knew that we were wrong. Our arrogance blinded us, leaving us thinking right was wrong and up was down. But it was no use, sitting here crying. We had to move, try our best and fight.


 Face soaked with tears, I stood up. The other two were surprised by my action. “It's not the end. Time for Round 2.”


Game (a short story by Tan Hao Jin)

         A pale translucent moon shone like a coin in the pitch-black night sky. Trees stand tall at the side of the graveyard—their arms, convoluted and bony, thin out as they grow aimlessly around the trunk. Gnarled branches grow at  angles, clawing out, attempting to escape. The stench of decay and death fills this cursed place. The descending night cast faint shadows of dancing ghouls and phantoms onto the foot of the graves. Fierce gusts of wind rip through the air, crying in grief, causing the leaves to flap furiously. A hoarse raven, perched atop the low stone wall in the distance, croaks fatally, announcing the arrival of darkness before being devoured by night.


“Grandfather!” I screamed as he fell, pupils pure white, like a huge puppet whose strings were cut, fell with a sickening thud. He lay sprawling on the ground, like a huge rag doll.


 As I walk through the graveyard, I see an owl. Perched atop a low branch of a tree, its pair of piercing, beady yellow eyes dart from side to side observing the cemetery. The solitary owl hoots are quiet and quick. It emerges from the tree and settles onto a tombstone. Abandoning the grave, the mighty bird soars high up into the night sky, silhouetted by the dim street lights in the distance. Its gaze scrutinises the gravestones as he glides above. The tiny body of a rodent emerges from the shrubs. In horror, I see what it is going to do. 


“Father! Mother!” I screech as their bodies convulse and fall, as lifeless as stuffed bears, eyes reflecting me, myself, the next one to die.


In a single swoop, the owl dived towards the animal, grasping it in its sharp talons and sinking them deep into its flesh. Its beak digs into his squirming meal devouring its meat, whole. I shudder in horror as the killing takes place. Walking toward a marble gravestone at the end of the graveyard, I read the letters: 

MR SEET YOONG

DIED 2013

“THE MISSING AREN’T MISSING, THEY ARE JUST DEPARTED FOREVER”

The strange words register in my mind. Grandpa had been unknowingly killed by someone or something. I came to visit his grave to see and find clues about what may have happened. But I am not alone. Figures appear in the graveyard. I could be hallucinating, or simply dead already. Let it end, the excruciating pain. A wave of toys pours out from nowhere.  Ragdolls, stuffed bears, and puppets are all present in the sickening wave of toys. A figure, dressed in a silvery-white cloak, strides forward. He examines the toys. Then, reaching with his bony fingers takes out a puppet, whose strings are cut, smiling gruesomely at me… A red robe drapes his entire body. Black beads are its eyes, ogling me. A staff held by the puppet twitches like it is amused, amused at me, at my pathetic state. I see the madness in that eyes, planets and darkness and universes swirling in them.

I shriek and stumble backward. The figure takes off his hood and the ebony pale skull shines out, searing more images in my mind. Blood starts pouring out of my wounds. It walks towards me. No. NO! I run and flee, but the graveyard is sealed. There is no way out. A scythe stabs down at me, crushing my heart. The wraith whispers, “The missing aren’t missing, they are departed. Forever” The last smile comes from the puppet, smiling like anything, delivering the last fatal blow. He is the manipulator, I am not. I… 


The young girl walks into a toy shop, ablaze with light. Toys pour out, fluffy cute bears and rag dolls. She takes up a little small puppet and squeals in delight. “Daddy, I want this one!” An old newspaper shows a large caption: “Missing boy, police in disarray.” The puppet’s smile widened, and if anyone was noticing, reflected in its own eyes were three generations all hitching a frightened expression on their faces.  Just as there are deities that discard, there are deities of salvation.


Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Happy Holidays!

I wish everyone Happy Holidays and a Fabulous 2009!

Saturday, June 21, 2008

In Loving Memory: Madam Ooi Lian Chu (1935-2008)

It is with immense sadness I announce that my Mom passed away on June 8 (Sunday) at the age of 72. She succumbed to complications from pneumonia. It was all too sudden and it does not make any sense at all. I am sad and coping. I know she and Dad are now in a much better place, but I can't possibly tell you how much they will be dearly missed and constantly remembered. They are examples of humble parents who made ends meet for the children with unconditional love. I consider myself very lucky. Truly, the love of parents is boundless and there is no way one can repay. My regret, she didn't live to see the new house ready (in 1-2 more months).

I urge you to be kind to your living parents. On this note, I pay homage to all Mothers.

Saturday, June 21, 7:53PM

Friday, May 30, 2008

The waiting is finally over...

On Wednesday 4:15PM, the Chair of the School sent me an email that will change the whole course of my stay in Singapore. It is a sharp turning point, if you will. This was a two-line email, but it was definitely the one that would make me excited for many days. After almost 8 months of screening and debate, the university management has agreed to grant me the inaugural Nanyang Assistant Professorship. It is not about the title, but it is about the amount of start-up grant that comes with it. In principal the university can fund up to S$1M for my work, subject to approval of the final budget. Too bad I do not have more details on this as the time of writing, but it can only be better than now!

I have in the past lamented how slow my research was and was having a second thought about taking up an academic position. With this award, I am all ready to undertake this new endeavor.

Early this year I was turned down for the NRF Research Fellowship when I faced with a group of high caliber and accomplished young researchers who have a long string of credentials to their credit (we are talking about paper in Science/Nature, Patents, Nobel Laureate's advisee, etc). Naturally I was upset and uncertain. With this new support, I am in a more comfortable position to take my research to another height, and hopefully this is a first step towards more grants.

By the way my laptop is in bad condition, I will need to ask for a new one from the school.

Saturday, May 31, 11:34AM

Monday, May 26, 2008

Best of Luck to Shian Ling

I met Shian Ling yesterday at Jurong Point. In less than 3 months, she will be returning to Duke in Durham, NC, to pursue doctoral study. So in a way this is farewell lunch, though she did not seem to like the idea of being away for the next 5 years (actually she perfers to look at it as being away for 1 year as she plans to visit home everyday year). She asked why hadn't I been updating my blog. Well, these past months have really been dull and I really do not anything interesting to write. All funding proposals were turned down and I am not any different one year ago:(

I paid respect in a nearby Temple before heading home. I got off a few stops ahead thinking that I should walk instead of letting bus 199 making a big loop around the campus. Not a wise decision I must tell. It started pouring as soon as I got off and I took shelter at the information booth. It got worse and there was no way I can escape so I waited. Twenty minutes passed and this kind gentleman pulled his car over and asked if he can give me ride. YES was my answer! I did not ask for his name, but he told me he was a former NTU student and he was back to study for external exam. Thanks dude, you were a great help or less I might have to wait for 1 more hour and risking myself of getting cold. The message? Never stop hoping!

I have just returned from Japan one week early and you want to know my biggest impression? The moment I sat on their toilet bowl, I knew this is a truly technological country. If you have been there, you know what I mean!

My laptop has been stalling on me, waiting to get it back from the IT people.

Monday, May 26, 2008, 4:12PM

Tuesday, March 04, 2008

35 People, Places, & Things That Will Shape The Future

http://www.eetimes.com/news/latest/showArticle.jhtml?articleID=206901125

And item # 24 is 3-D with TSVs...

(Tuesday, 10:11PM)

Saturday, February 16, 2008

US 7,307,003

United States Patent 7,307,003
Reif , et al. December 11, 2007

Method of forming a multi-layer semiconductor structure incorporating a processing handle member

Abstract

A method of forming a multi-layer semiconductor structure includes attaching a handle-member to a top surface of a first structure using a first interface. At least one region of a bottom surface of the first structure is etched to form at least a first via-hole for exposing a portion of a first conductive member defined on the first structure. A conductive material is disposed in the first via-hole such that a first end of the conductive material is in electrical communication with the first conductive member and a second end of the conductive material is exposed at the bottom surface of the first structure. A second interface is disposed over at least the second end of the conductive material, which serves as a bonding and/or electrical interface between the first conductive member defined on the first structure and a second structure of the multi-layer semiconductor device structure.



Inventors:

Reif; Rafael (Newton, MA), Chen; Kuan-Neng (Cambridge, MA),

Tan; Chuan Seng (Cambridge, MA), Fan; Andy (Cambridge, MA)

Assignee:Massachusetts Institute of Technology (Cambridge, MA)
Appl. No.: 10/749,103
Filed: December 30, 2003